Sunday, December 2, 2007

Let Go...

Life is a journey that is filled with joys, surprises, laughter, pain and tears. When something unpleasant happens, you just have to accept it and move on, especially when you know you have tried your best to make amends...While it lasts, the pain and hurt will be difficult to bear. But take comfort in knowing that time heals everything, even the deepest, most painful wound. You just have to be strong, learn to accept, and learn to let go...Love can fill us with blissful happiness, but love is not always the solution...When it is time, you just have to let go...The past will not be erased, but shall become sweet memories of good times that were shared...It is an uphill task, but you must swallow this bitter pill...Keep your head up, think wisely, do not do or say things that you might regret...Move on, keep your mind open, know that happiness will come, if you just let fate take its due course...Do not hold on to tightly, or you shall only bring hurt and pain upon yourself...Do not keep longing for what is past, because if you keep looking to the past, you will not give your future a fair chance...Be strong, and just let go...

Thursday, November 8, 2007

那英 - 一笑而过

不要把脸藏在月光背后
有谁在意我们的生活
坐在安静角落
该为这一刻找个解脱
不要你眼里伪装的内疚
该是自己幸福的时候
静静地想一想
谁会追求刻意的温柔
你伤害了我还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
只怪自己爱你所有的错
你伤害了我还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
刻骨铭心就这样的被你一笑而过
心碎千百遍任谁也无法承担
想安慰自己的语言

Don't ask me why i suddenly thought of this song. I just like Na Ying, i suppose, hehe! Take care people!!

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Acknowledgement Matters

Everyone wants acknowledgment. The degree to which an individual wants to be acknowledged defers; whether it is wishing to win an award, or having your name published in a journal, or even receiving a simple hug from a friend as a thank you sign. Why? Because being acknowledged for a certain task that has been performed gives us a sense of satisfaction, a sense of accomplishment. For example, it is an acknowledgment to performing artists to be honoured in the Music Hall of Fame, or for a teacher to be thanked by a student who has performed well in examinations; acknowledgment matters. Why else would there countless types of awards out there? The Nobel Prize, the Man Booker Prize, the Oscars, even our own annual Anugerah Juara Lagu, all awarding outstanding achievers in their respective fields. To quote from Fine Arts on why awards are important, "These honours do more than lend credibility to our craft - they recognize a history of performance and consistency and promise excellence in the future." In other words, acknowledgment shows appreciation for the effort that we put into our work, and encourage us to continue giving our best to improve further. So, do not be hesitant, do not be stingy in paying compliments; give credit where it is due; saying a simple "thank you" when someone renders you a service will suffice; because even though some might deny it, acknowledgment matters...

Have a nice day everyone!!

"Having once decided to achieve a certain task, achieve it at all costs of tedium and distaste. The gain in self confidence of having accomplished a tiresome labor is immense"
- Arthur Helps -

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Pain, a part of growing up...

Part of growing up is experiencing pain. How i hate that phrase, haha! I've read it and heard it countless times. In books, or in the movies, when tragedy strikes, (tragedy might be a strong word, but you get the picture...) and the hero or heroine is going thru a painful and difficult time, those words of comfort always come up. It is true, since pain and hardships are unavoidable in life, except for a very few blessed people who sail through life on a breeze, blissful and always happy. However, knowing pain is unavoidable hardly makes it less painful, =|

Like every other person, i have my share of hardships, or problems, as we normally call them. Little children forced by circumstances to become the breadwinner for the family; losing a parent to a disease that has no cure; starvation and poverty in poor countries...My issues are very very trivial compared to these, and they seem incredibly selfish to actually call them problems, but the thing is, however small they may seem to others, it doesn't make the pain easier to bear.

I've been going thru a very trying time for me lately, caused mainly by my break up. I suppose that will make me sound like a girl who was extremely dependent on her boyfriend, but that is not the case. It is only that i have never been in a relationship prior to this one, and to experience the pain after a break up was the first for me. I've seen others go thru it, but i never realized how hard it was until now. I suppose you cannot tell exactly how awful the experience is unless you have suffered thru it yourself...Suddenly everything was different, the situation changed, and i was forced to deal with it.

When it happened, i lost someone i had depended on for so long. It doesn't mean i clung to him for everything, but it was a comfort to know that there was someone who was always there, ready to listen, willing to help, caring for me...It was to me, losing an emotional support. And i found out i didn't really know how to handle it. I tried hard to boost myself up, doing things to make myself happy, keeping myself occupied, but it's much easier theoretically. I became depressed, i lost a lot of enthusiasm for everything, i moped around always, never feeling properly happy. It seems very dumb, especially when i know i have wonderful friends, and a loving family. But sometimes, it's hard to remind ourselves of how lucky we are, how blessed we are when we are absorbed in our worries. It was a very trying time, and very very painful emotionally...

I went thru alot of stages; pain, anger, denial...=) But I am much better now though. I haven't bounced back completely, but at least I am on the road of recovery. Time heals everything...I am just waiting for that time to come sooner than later for me. For now, pain will still be there, but I am learning how to deal with it with better grace. Being sheltered might keep you from harm, but hardships help us in the sense that they teach you, and make you a stronger person if you learn to accept them. As they say, pain, a part of growing up...

Things change, people change, but it doesn't mean you forget the past and try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on, and treasure all the memories.
- Alicia M. Boxler -

Explaining my thoughts =)

Like I said, this is a place for me to pen my thoughts, whatever comes to mind. I don't have a specific theme or anything, because i know i wouldn't be able to keep it up, haha! It's not a journal only about art, or specifically about music, or my views on politics...It's just what i think, thoughts i would like to share, with no one in particular. It's not my way of bragging, or an outlet to cry for sympathy, before anyone judges...So anyway, hope you enjoy reading my "journal". Feel free to leave comments, they are always welcome. But minding your language will always be highly appreciated, =) Take care!